Written April, 2004
I write this letter to my friends and family and loved ones on
the assumption it will be read to you.
I wanted to share with you the last two years of my life and
even how wonderful it was, even with all its trials and having
a blood cancer.
Being diagnosed with a leukemia as you know was a major blow to
me, it was not what I intended to do in my thirties. It was a
great challenge for my family, my friends and my children. I am
not the only one who had to keep their spirits up—you did too,
and you all did a good job of making the best out of something
terrible. We all learned to hide our pain, cry silently and
hope for the best. You also had to experience cancer of a close
friend, daughter, partner, and mother.
I am so thankful for all the support I received and Mark’s
unconditional support in being there at the hardest times and
really helping the kids get through this.
I also learned to slow down a bit, and take each day with a bit
more thought. And my parents too, I think they realized they
should not aim so much in the future. It also is funny how an
illness had to happen for people to come together and look at
the big picture. My parents really got me through this, they
were there 100% of the time, for everything, I mean everything.
Thank God they are healthy and alive. I know this journey would
have been so difficult without them.
I also want to express my wishes for my children. They have
been raised by me, their one mother since they were babies. It
is very important for me to leave this earth knowing those two
kids will remain in close contact, will see each other and be
brother and sister forever. It would give me great peace to
know that all of you will make a point to see that the children
stay in contact. I know as time goes by, everyone gets so busy,
but I am not here to keep us all one so it is all of your help
that will keep Julien and Sierra doing things together.
Siblings, as you know, are a great asset to life and very
I also want to thank everyone for watching me be a goofball
most of my life and being Amy. I tried to carry out my life in
a laid back, free spirited kind of way. I chose what I did and
I did what I wanted most of the time, and I did my best to
raise the kids in a normal healthy environment, but also wanted
to be me and not some cranky old frumpy housewife type. This
would have been out of my character. I loved to see friends, I
loved a good party and good times. I also just loved hanging
out at home cleaning and vacuuming and doing laundry and being
a sort of June Cleaver. I also had the goal of getting the kids
to graduation and then moving to the islands and be Amy the
Bartender-Artist. A hippy at age 44.
There was a lot I had not finished and there was a lot I got to
do so I am happy I made it this far but sad I can’t see my kids
grow up, very sad. Today I want you to promise that you will
enjoy yourselves, relax when you want to and give yourself a
break and be kind and loving to your kids, friends, and family.
Life, as we know, is so unpredictable.
So Live Like Tomorrow is Only a Gift.
Tom Shea of the Springfield Republican wrote an article
about Amy - it can be accessed by clicking this link: